Time always feels wrong. I wait at the clinic and check my watch every five minutes, thumb through old Newsweek Magazines and anxiously wait for the appointment to be over so I can get on with my life. Or else I scramble in disbelief when the hours have flown away, work still to be done but the day almost over. It seems old people live too long and young people die too soon. It’s taking forever to publish my novel. Maybe it will never happen. Time is all messed up.
If I were in charge…. babies would never be overdue; books would sell as soon as they were written; appointments would be on time and shorter than expected; all work would be finished when the clock said it was time to go home.
"My people, what have I done to you? How have I burdened you? Answer me. I brought you up out of Egypt and redeemed you from the land of slavery. I sent Moses to lead you, also Aaron and Miriam. My people, remember what Balak king of Moab counseled and what Balaam son of Beor answered. Remember your journey from Shittim to Gilgal, that you may know the righteous acts of the Lord." Micah 6:3-6 (NIV)
In other words God says, "What’s your problem? Haven’t I been enough for you in every situation?"
Funny how God’s timing seems off while I am in the moment and yet I see a much different perspective looking back. While it seemed I waited too long for prayers to be answered, circumstances to change, and situations to improve, God knew a better way. Looking back, I marvel at his impeccable timing. Everything fits together like an intricate puzzle. What a mess if God would have used my timetable instead!
Lord, help me to remember my journey, to acknowledge your perfect timing in every area of my life, and to rest in the knowledge that I can trust you with every detail. Amen.
